I have written so far about mental health and as I have been focusing more about it, I see the direct correlation the mind has to the heart. In fact the mind and heart is connected. I did not start to truly heal mentally until the issues in my heart were exposed. The first thing I discovered in my heart back in March at the beginning of the unveiling process was a deep root of unbelief. I really did not believe God the way I thought I did. On the outside I look like an on fire believer. I am at every church service, every prayer meeting, every event, always volunteering and yet in my heart was a place where evil was thriving without me even knowing it.
Beware, brethren, lest there be in any of you an evil heart of unbelief in departing from the living God. Hebrews 3:12 NKJV
Ignorant of the evil in my heart, I really am thankful that God has been so patient with me even thought I didn’t believe Him. I really had been in sin and had been in sin for awhile. It is so powerful because no one else is able to really see that I had been in sin because it was hidden. It surely was hidden from my own self.
But God, in His great love for me would not deny me the opportunity to be freed from the spirit of unbelief. The word of God that had been sowed in my heart started to grow which pushed the things that were not like God to the surface. I could no longer be comfortable or hide the issues that I had been living with.
Would not God search this out? For He knows the secrets of the heart. Psalms 44:21 NKJV
During this process, I have been blown away by the effects of writing. I did not understand why writing was so impactful and why I needed to do it everyday. But writing is active thinking and the mind is connected to the heart so when I write, I am releasing what is in my heart.
I had such a time with this, I would get prompted by the Holy Spirit to write and I denied, tried to hide and run from it. But He knew all along that writing is what I needed to do because writing was the place that I am able to truly be open and honest. The Holy Spirit is my helper but He can’t help me if I don’t let Him. I have learned that if I don’t write, I am hiding. And if I am hiding, I am not being open and honest with God and myself. And if I am not being open and honest with God and myself, I am not believing that God loves me and that He cares for me and that He is my refuge and my fortress. If I am not believing God then I am in sin.
He who covers his sins will not prosper, but whoever confesses and forsakes them will have mercy. Proverbs 28:13 NKJV
The other day I received the revelation that my heart has been blocking me from prospering. I know for a fact that if I had not started the work in my mind/heart that I would not be sitting in my house #2. But I have failed in other areas of business and other ideas because my heart had been contaminated with evil.
This stuff is deep. That is why I am sharing my process with my journal SEEN. It is an open invite to be open and honest with God and yourself because whatever secret sin that may be in your heart can be the very thing that could be blocking you from experiencing a certain level of success.
And, it’s a daily thing but we are worth the work.
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