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Sometimes I feel new to life – as if I were born yesterday. I experience things I haven’t experienced before all the time. It’s like, wow – how did I get here? Where have I been? What have I been doing? Hilarious, I don’t know what I’m doing most of the time. I’m not how I used to be. I was firm on that “fake it until I make it” thing when I was younger, but now, I cannot “fake it.” Which is a good thing. I had been living a lie pretty much all of my life. The ruler of this world is Satan, and he is a liar. Born into a lie-based life. Being born again is so essential because the first birth was jacked up. Anyway, old things are passed away, and behold, all things have been made new. I’m still new to this. Sometimes, I look up and be like Father God — (making a face). He knows me. My prayer most of the time is for help with the things He gives me to do.

Anyway, I just had a moment. Alive longer than I expected, and I am learning more about myself. I wrote a while ago that I would not remain the same. I didn’t know how to release the Greater inside of me, and I knew I wasn’t living at my total capacity. Now, I don’t have that longing feeling because I can see.

Eyes on my future is where I am going with this. I can see now, and I can see past my current state. God has always been with me. He has always taken care of me and had my back since before time began. I may not always know how He is working and using me, but I know I can trust Him in the process.