Today started off in one of those “zoomed out” moods. You know, the kind where you have a ton of things to do, but your brain just isn’t on board. I recently got back into the gym (if you’ve been keeping up with my blogs, you already know), but today, I didn’t actually hit the gym. Instead, I did a very light upper body workout. And speaking of workouts, oh my, I need to resume my outside walk on my watch.
I’ve realized I kind of like the sound of the streets—the noise, the tires on the pavement, the beep beep, the honk honk, the wind. The temperature’s nice today, and the sun’s out, so I’ve got my hat on. It’s not even 3 PM, and I’m trying to transition into getting some work done, but let me tell you, I was just not all there this morning. Then I thought, “Let me write down where I am right now,” without judgment, without being hard on myself. That’s one of my goals this year—cutting myself some slack and not being so hard on myself when I feel like I’m not doing enough.
Sure, I didn’t hit the gym, but I’ve got weights at home, so I figured, “Why not try that?” Then, instead of driving to Starbucks, I decided to walk there. And let me tell you, I’m a newly converted iced coffee girl. I’ve always been about hot coffee until recently, and I think it’s the foam. Yeah, the foam. That sweet, sweet foam has won me over.
Also, fun fact: I’m recording this as I walk, so it looks like I’m talking on the phone, but I’m not. It’s kind of funny because, truthfully, I don’t know anyone I’d share these details with personally. It would be strange to have that type of relationship where I’m just spilling the tea about my day like this. But this page, this website, is my safe space. And let’s be real, physically writing things down can be exhausting. No, wait, not exhausting—just exhausting in a different way. By the time I find a pen and paper and sit down, I’m ready to tap out.
Like this past Sunday—after service, I was all set to hit the gym. I put on my workout clothes, shoes ready, water bottle filled, and thought, “Let me take a quick nap before I go.” Well, that “quick nap” turned into a full-blown sleep marathon. I didn’t wake up until Monday morning, just in time for work. No gym that day! I did eventually get there, though, crying and all, just letting it out. If you caught that blog, you know what I’m talking about.
I’m just here, opening up about my life, being real, and creating a space for anyone who stumbles across my page. I appreciate anyone who takes the time to read or look at anything I put out there—it means a lot. So yeah, I’m opening up my heart here. Yes, there’s caffeine involved, but now that I’ve got my bearings a bit, I’m ready to transition into the other things I need to do today.
Thank God for the ability to reset within the day. It’s 2:30 PM on a Wednesday, about 85 degrees out, and I’ve got Jesus. And He’s got me. Amen.
[Spoken by me/rewritten by ChatGPT]
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