I think next week, or sometime soon, I’m going to start a blog series called Facing My Fears. One of the areas I’m going to tackle is my fear around finances. It’s not so much about the money itself—it’s about paying attention to it. You know, being a responsible adult, keeping track of bills, and all that. Honestly, what’s a budget? What does that even mean? Just the idea of consistently paying attention to my finances, figuring out how to generate more income, how to save, and how to get out of debt—it’s overwhelming. But I know the first step is to actually look. And let me be real: I haven’t been looking. I’ve been avoiding, suppressing, and just not dealing with the challenges head-on. But it’s time to face them.
Faith it—because God is for me. That’s what the Word of God says. God is for me, and not only has He not given me a spirit of fear, but God has given me power, love, and a sound mind. God is on my side, so who can be against me? I’m more than a conqueror, and I’m writing this series from that place. I’m done with living in fear. Yes, I’ve made mistakes, bad decisions, and been irresponsible with my finances. I haven’t stewarded well, but I no longer want to live that way. I want to be better, more responsible, and accountable. I want to see the fruit of living in Christ. I want to experience more of the blessing of the Lord that makes me rich without adding any sorrow.
I want to live out what the Word of God says about my life and my finances on another level, without fear. How can I believe God when I’m too scared to look at my bills? How can I believe that every need is already met, as the Word says, if I’m avoiding the reality of my financial situation? So, I’m not going to be afraid anymore. I’m not going to use exhaustion as an excuse. No more falling victim to circumstances, avoidance, depression, or anxiety—things that have stunted my growth and kept me from where I should be by now. I’m thankful for where I am, but I’m moving forward. So, this is part one—or whatever you want to call it—of Facing My Fears.
[Spoken by me / written by ChatGPT]
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