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Okay, let’s try this again—continuing on with the Facing Fears series. I’m just now recovering from the last blog session. Let me tell you, while it was productive because I got some work done, I can’t say it was a good thing overall. I mean, it’s essential to get things done, but depriving myself of sleep like that? No way. I need to account for recovery time because I cannot operate effectively without the essential tool called sleep. I just can’t.

It’s now Wednesday, and I find myself remembering how back in 2020, I was working on so many things. I had a podcast called We’re Created, and I even turned it into a corporation. I was deeply into creative writing, podcasting, and sharing my faith through creativity. I had episodes where I shared poems, short stories, and faith-based messages. I was editing, posting on social media, and trying to manage everything myself.

But looking back, I realized I gave up too soon. At the time, I unknowingly had this “all or nothing” mindset. I didn’t realize how rigid I was, thinking that if I didn’t see immediate success or engagement, it meant I was failing. I was even selling T-shirts through my website, designing them myself, but I was embarrassed by what I was creating. I didn’t know how to be authentic or confident in my work. When I didn’t get feedback or see instant results, I let it discourage me.

Fast forward to today, almost 2025, and I can’t help but wonder what my life would look like if I had stuck with it. Had I just believed in myself, in God, and in the value of what I was creating, things could have been different. I wrote two books during that time! If I had only realized that my perspective—while different—was still valuable, I know I would have eventually seen the fruit of my labor.

So, I’m reminding myself today that, though my website and blog are still young, though I’ve had to restart, and though I’m starting over on social media with no followers, there’s power in rebuilding. I deleted my old Instagram because it was crippling me in ways I didn’t fully understand, and I started fresh with a new Threads account. It’s a little frustrating because I had a good algorithm going, but I’m trusting that this reset is necessary for something better.

I was actually inspired to start over by something as simple as the In-N-Out down the street. They tore it down and rebuilt it bigger and better. If they can rebuild, so can I. I’m refining things and refusing to be afraid of the process. This Facing Fears series has been so helpful for me, and I pray it helps others who find themselves reading this. We all face moments of doubt, fear, and anxiety, but we can’t let those things block us.

And today, I had a proud moment. I faced a confrontation that would normally challenge me, but I stood firm in business. I didn’t back down, and everything turned out well. Small victories like these remind me that I’m growing, that I’m moving forward, and that with God, all things are possible.

I know now that fear and doubt don’t have the final say in my life. Yes, I may still face financial struggles or personal setbacks, but I’m determined to keep moving forward, knowing that I have the victory through faith. I’m rebuilding, and I believe that what I’m creating now—my writing, my website, my business—is valuable. It’s not about immediate results, but about staying the course and trusting God with the process.

So here’s to rebuilding and facing fears head-on, knowing that the best is yet to come.

[Spoken by me/written by ChatGPT]