Yeah, so guys, why does it feel like it’s been ages since I did a blog? And the wild part is, I actually did two blogs last week. That’s a lot for me. But still, I had this thought like, Dang, it’s Thursday, and I haven’t put anything out this week. And honestly? I don’t have much to say—because I actually need to write.
I haven’t physically journaled in who knows how long, and that’s never really good for me. Journaling is something that’s so beneficial for my overall well-being, yet it can be challenging to stay consistent with it. But I know it’s something I need to do—today. No excuses.
One thing that’s been sitting heavy on my mind and heart today is this: How can I open up my heart to operate at full capacity? Because there are just some things that are challenging for me. Some things I don’t understand. Some things I keep hitting roadblocks with. And, honestly, I first recognized this struggle when I was a teenager—that I wasn’t living to my full potential.
Every now and then, I feel like I’m breaking through those barriers, like I’m finally stepping out of that shell. Like I’m experiencing a breakthrough in the area of potential. But staying consistent with it? That’s a whole other ballgame.
See, I’m a strong believer in small steps. I don’t knock slow progress. But when that small step is so far from the next step, that’s when it becomes a problem. When the important priorities aren’t handled, life gets overwhelming—because life will life. And when life lifes, the challenge is shifting focus and remembering that God is with me.
And then there are moments when I completely lose my train of thought—like just now. Y’all. I straight up almost drove into a whole different city. That’s crazy. But praise God I caught it before I ended up somewhere I didn’t need to be.
Anyway—where was I?
Oh yeah. Steady progress.
It’s easy to talk about it. Easy to give someone else advice on it. But when I get home, nobody is there reminding me, Hey CJ, you got that deadline coming up. You got these responsibilities weighing on you. You got things that need to be handled. And the truth is, nobody sees that side of things—the in-the-trenches side.
I peeped this back when I was in the Navy. If you do something good, it just gets swept under the rug, overlooked like it doesn’t even matter. But if you make one mistake? Oh, suddenly the whole world has a magnifying glass on you. One slip-up, and it’s all woo, woo, woo—everybody’s watching. And that’s wild to me.
But that’s something I’m actively working on—shifting my focus to see the good. No matter what’s going on, there’s something to thank God for in each day. I refuse to be consumed by everything that’s trying to weigh me down. It’s a fight, but I win.
And that’s what I was thinking about today—how to truly let God work in my heart so that I can live fully. No limits. No blockages. No holding back. Open throttle. Foot on the gas. Moving forward with God driving, not me. And that? That’s possible.
I’m grateful for His grace. Grateful for the opportunity to move forward. And most importantly—grateful that I am not alone.
Because out of everything God has promised, out of all the amazing things in the Word, the most powerful thing to me is this: He will never leave me nor forsake me.
That alone is enough.
And on that note, I’m about to go grab me a pistachio cream cold brew and a cheese Danish. Yeah. Yeah.
Be blessed.
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