PbyCj

Hi guys—happy New Year.

I know it’s February 3rd, but this is actually my first blog of the year. And honestly, this year has already been very eventful.

I wanted to talk about getting back to the inner work—and how that’s not a one-time thing. It’s an everyday thing. The inner work doesn’t stop.

I’ve lived through the first realization that I needed to do inner work. I’ve lived through actively doing the inner work. And I’ve lived through the consequences of not doing the inner work. And I’ll say this plainly: I think it’s worse to start the inner work and stop than to never start at all.

Because not continuing the inner work I was doing set me back—a lot. And now I’m in repair mode. Had I known how important it was to stay focused on the inner work, to keep going, to not stop once progress started… my life would look very different right now.

It’s interesting, the different layers of life. The different seasons. The different experiences and stages of development. And through all of it—grace. Grace to continue. Grace to hope. Grace to move forward.

What really hits me is time. Time is ticking. When I first realized I needed to do the inner work, it was 2021. It’s 2026 now. Five years passed. And had I understood that the work doesn’t stop—that you don’t do the work, experience a level of success, and then abandon it—I would be in a very different place today.

The work doesn’t stop.

Stopping the work—suppressing, avoiding, not facing things, not dealing with myself—that’s a recipe for disaster. And I’ve experienced it firsthand. So I’m thankful. Truly thankful to God for His continued grace, His continued mercy, and His continued love.

I don’t really share inner things with people. I’ve never been that person. I’m very selective. If you can’t help me, I’m probably not telling you. If you don’t need to know, I don’t need to share. That’s just how I operate.

I’m not asking someone who’s never bought a house how to buy a house. That just doesn’t make sense to me. But that’s a whole other conversation.

This blog—this page—this is my little corner of the internet. This is where I process thoughts. Where I process life. And I know that sharing here, in this way, is part of the inner work. Because if I’m not creating a safe space for myself, then I’m short-changing the whole experience.

So I appreciate you. Those of you who stick with me on this journey of growth.

It’s kind of wild looking back. I remember being devastated by the never-ending process of growth. Of improvement. I felt so behind in life. So behind in personal development. I looked around and thought, everyone else is so far ahead of me.

I struggled with basic things. And I remember thinking, I’m standing in a room of growth—and I hate it.

But now I see that’s just part of life. And it’s actually a good place to be.

I’m not ashamed of it anymore. I’m not afraid of it. And I know now what has always been my biggest challenge: myself. Dealing with myself. Facing the truth about myself.

It’s not outside of me. It’s not external. It’s internal.

And oddly enough—that encourages me.

Because when I was actively doing the inner work, I did make progress. Real progress. The kind I was actually looking for. The change I want comes from doing the inner work. From winning on the inside.

And that’s where I’m at right now.

Focused on winning on the inside.

That’s what matters to me right now.