I was up this morning at 331A writing because there is something different going on inside of me. I was really thinking about how I really have had mental health issues for most of my life and I didn’t know it. Wanting to die is a mental health problem and I have never made that connection until now.
I had been a functioning mentally ill person.
It’s powerful because until 2 years ago, I didn’t know that I wasn’t normal – I mean I knew I wasn’t normal normal but you know. I started to accept the humanity side of me, accepting the issues as if that was apart of my true self. My mental state had gone unchallenged until the fall of 2019 in which I was exposed to the truth and I have never been the same.
All of the mental health issues that I had grown comfortable with had been rattle and brought to the surface. I just didn’t see any of it at all because I didn’t have the language to associate my experience.
But now I do.
Here I am promoting my new journal SEEN because it was a must for me to write my way to openness. I can talk about this now, without fear or shame because I did the work. I believed God. There are no shortcuts to freedom and no one will ever be free by hiding.
It’ll be available on amazon.com Jan 14th.
For now, my personal journal is available for pre-order: https://www.amazon.com/dp/B09PJY14WN
“My frame was not hidden from You, When I was made in secret, And skillfully wrought in the lowest parts of the earth. Your eyes saw my substance, being yet unformed. And in Your book they all were written, The days fashioned for me, When as yet there were none of them.”Psalms 139:15-16 NKJV
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