Last night, I decided to try out AI technology to enhance my writing, and it sparked some thoughts on human cognitive behavior and development. I have been trying to wake up at 4 am for the past three years, but none of the five different alarms I set, including Alexa, my phone, and my brother’s phone, seem to work. Instead, they make me feel bad and jack me up even more. I need to stop doing things that don’t work and try something else. I desire to leave the house earlier, but with my morning routine of showering, eating breakfast, praying, and getting ready, I only give myself 20 minutes to do everything – this has not been serving me, and I have not taken care of myself as I should. I have also not been capitalizing on my nighttime because I have been exhausted (see my last few blogs). However, I have recognized that I need to prioritize my time and take care of myself. I have started to shift my routine to the nighttime. While I end up going to sleep after midnight, I now have time to do things that are important to my well-being. Like shaving my legs and moisturizing my feet. I realized that my prayer life has suffered because I have been trying to fit into the box of waking up early in the morning to pray. I have made little progress in that area, so I am switching things up and praying at night instead. I want to differentiate between discipline and a lack of self-discipline and recognize when something is not working for me. I desire to be better and cultivate my relationship with God without limitations.
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