Sitting in my truck on the side of the street eating a breakfast burrito for dinner. Just wanted to do a quick blog. It’s been a little minute but things have been moving. I’ve been working on some things that I’m not at a place to talk about yet and I like that. I like that as a creative — just being able to not bring up what I’m working on and just work on it. Because sometimes talking about the things makes it feel like progress but it isn’t real progress. You’re just talking about it.
I really want to see the fruition of what I’m working on. Want to see it manifest, see the follow through, and have it be a full complete thing that exists out in the 3D world. Not just in my head or on my computer. Out there.
Being in this creative world for a little while now I’ve been through the getting excited, wanting to talk about it, telling people — and half the time they don’t even understand what you’re saying or they don’t have that same energy. And I’ve just gotten to a place where there’s no need for external validation. No need for the applause or the cosign. Don’t need it. And that’s a beautiful place to be.
The other thing on my mind lately is just not letting anything stop me. On yesterday I had made plans to go somewhere, didn’t tell anybody, and when the time came I was not feeling it at all. Could’ve stayed in bed and nobody would’ve known. But I went anyway. And it was nice. I kept the plans I made with myself. And that matters — being reliable to yourself, building that trust with yourself. Most importantly, trusting God without limits. My source of strength and confidence is from a never failing God Who loves me. There’s been an increase in my belief in God and it’s been encouraging.
So, keep going. Keep trusting God, keep creating.
-CJ
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